Love... oh k#k!

I figure once in my life I have to get this out... once and for all... spit it out so I can look at it clearly (look at love clearly... HA, I know right?) But dammit I have to try.

THEN later... a love flick AKA Chick Flick.. panty dropper... guy killer... you know, a love story that will even have the guys almost in tears.. just almost.. cause they too proud... "Ag nee man, dis net vir moffies hierie!" translation for the English "F*&K this shit for a movie!".. but in the shower later he'll be curled up crying like that dude from The Crying Game... minus the 'misunderstanding'.

Ah love... "To love means renouncing strength." <- look at that, what do you make of that? Can easily be misconstrued right? I get it if you have scars jading you from the past. I mean strength as in too much pride and way too many barriers that need to be dropped.

With true understanding, compassion and respect for the other, your partner, that strength will in turn be safe, that heart is appreciated and always... safe. If true willingness to have understanding, compassion and respect is THERE, and forever present, for the other... you are on the right track to know love... remember that, and that alone.

One does become vulnerable if one opens up and allows love to take over... find your balance then.

Love is just that understanding and respect for boundaries... right? It's the feeling of all emotions embedded into your eyes and only for the other to see... they may take a look... your safe with that person mos?

Now you could say to reach that level of respect, compassion and understanding you have to open yourself to the point where you are totally exposed, the core is bare... that isn't a bad thing though... with the right person. You'll know who that person is... you'll have NO FEAR to expose your core to them.

I think love is usually feared cause it is misunderstood and even perceived as a fool's emotion... why not walk blind... we walk blind around most thoughts and emotions... us a bit of cautions hope and take the leap... from current experience... it feels great...

NOW, hear me out, I've feared it myself.. way too many-a-times but then I realised; expose enough, then totally when safe and know when light is green.. look into her eyes... brother... you'll know.

You know what... for fuck sakes, IT'S LOVE PEOPLE!!! Not the eternal damnation of the soul... It's when you wake up next to that person and and they have that morning white sticky stuff and they have the eyes of the living dead and the breath... no comment... but to you they still are the most beautiful being ever. When you see the evil side come out but you know that good heart is still pounding and you help it to overcome this battle in the dark... when you kiss and your knees go weak and even you lift your foot all girly like... not her... when you can't get enough... when you could give all... when you'll give your last breath so she can have a thousand more... She's your best friend... your enemy... your lover and partner... Even when you falling apart and end back in nappies and always look like you chewing on jelly... and so does she but you still wanna slap that sweet ass... that... my friends... is love...

"All these words I just don't say, and nothing else matters. Trust I seek and I find in you, everyday for us something new, open mind for a different view... and nothing else matters."
- Nothing Else Matters, Metallica

Couldn't have said it better. You know what... Love is what it is... We each will know when we see it... when we find it...

Be good or great at it!

Love Reg (hahaha... see what I did there)

Chasing cars....

Just heard that flippin' song again and I'm sorry... WHY THE F*@K WOULD ANYONE WANNA CHASE WATERFALLS!!!!??? HOW DO YOU CHASE A BLOODY WATERFALL!!!!???? Up or down??? And the way they sing it... holy shit... like bloody Sirens so that one would be lured in and wouldn't notice the twisted ludicrous nature and 'metaphor' driving the song!!!! Almost had me!!! But I are have degree... THUMBS!!! I'd rather chase a car... dogs look so happy doing it.. (and yes I know what consequences go with THAT statement...

thank you...

Be good or good at it!

Mental Domination... a work in progress

Well, here I am... my first blog... hmmmm... I guess it'll only be appropriate to dedicate it to my first proper script... The one seed that sprouted and grew, evolved... branched (look at me go with the whole symbolic and metaphoric thing here, HA) and became this forest of thoughts... all ripe and full of life's fleshy truths and bullshit. This seed you ask? "What the fuck?" What is going on, why, how, when, what?????????? The list went on... my head was about to explode... I had to spit it out. I had to write it down - of course I had to, I HAD to see the little bugger that kept me awake soooooooooooooooooooooooooo many a night - and write it down I did. Since I was studying drama at the time I thought that writing it into a play would be appropriate. Cause only when it is 'appropriate' is it the only way that we can make sense of something mos... once it's skull f#%$#d us for a good while of course.

So I appropriately let it all out...manifested it into two beings infused in a mental battle, this being between the CONSCIOUS and the SUBCONSCIOUS, and titled it MENTAL DOMINATION... quite catchy ne? Well I was chuffed...

Note: My writing style is very 'raw'... so very uncensored, very unedited, very explicit... so if it offends... Well try again... maybe you'll see what I 'm saying... expression is about telling it like it is... So I don't sugar coat it...

We all have something that is ours alone, our own soul goal, some package of sort, some sort of manual mind given to us by God to solve that completes us. Mental Domination is what I like to call it, my mind's own capabilities, my walls, barriers, limitations, set before me that i set for myself, what we set for ourselves. There is never a quarrel or questioning of the unnecessary unknowns but should only question the vital unknowns and a friendly quarrel, challenge with oneself, myself. The conquering of the unknown in one to determine whom you really are and want to be.

It is the alpha pro-ideal... the meaning of life.. in my eyes anyway. To solve this manual and live a good life without having to rely on auto-pilot cause, well then, you get results like Julius Malema... no need to explain further... do I? The purpose of life is to question and discover the unknown but in order to do so we have to question and discover the unknown in ourselves first... completing the 'training schedule' - which is reset every day cause well life has a sick sense of humour and needs to be entertained - and in turn progressing in one's own Mental Domination and then using it to be happy, live, love, compromise, trust, fail, fall, smile, cry... to progress and evolve as a human being and well.... just be. Oneself.


This requires for one to take stock take time and look at one's characteristics such as lust, faith, good faith, perception of our senses, Justice, respect, individualism, etc, etc.

It’s your mind… play the game… conquer it… but take your time… know thy ‘enemy’… learn your weaknesses… befriend it… and live…

Coming Soon

The rantings of a madman... just wanted to set up my blog... busy working so don't really have time to melt now... but working on my first one as we speak